I proclaimed to have already done it, but I lied. So as 2023 draws to an end I do believe I've finally let go of that last thread of trying to impress people who don't care about me. It's a lonely journey, one where my mind has tried to trick me in believing, at times, I don't have any friends left because there simply is no spark left between us or even complete rejection of my energy has been noted. A journey of consciously reminding myself to breathe through the pain of misalignment and dullness and move towards alignment and light, it's wilderness, it's lateral stealth moves, it's making an effort to get to know people in an open and confident way.
This year, I felt more than ever the 'reap what you sow' motto show up time and time again. I've been in the trenches, I've been blind, I've made some monumental mistakes that have brought me to my knees, but little by little I climbed the ladder, coffee cup in hand and made my way to the driver's seat of the combine harvester and began to see wheat not chaff appear because I started steering the machine in the right direction. And yes sometimes what seems like miracles happen, then I remind myself about true alignment and that my life is worth more than trying to reap a paddock full of poorly planted, badly tended to crops that keep me in lack. I am worth every abundance, joy and success and when it comes I'm going to celebrate it well!
Another epiphany this year was... what so many people are striving for I worked out as a very young woman. I knew from day dot that if I found a husband who shows me love by working so incredibly hard for his wife and children, to build a stable and happy family unit, to support my femininity and endeavours, to honour our legacy in every possible way, to not be afraid of his strong healthy masculine energy, I'd hit the jackpot of life. What so many people are striving for these days, I did this when I was 22 and our love for each other could not be stronger or more intentional.
Next year my parenting journey will take a new twist, it already has, but I guess the 18th birthday of my youngest darling will make it official. And officially a parent of adult men is a new game to play and new adventures await as I walk the tightrope of mothering too much or not enough. A mothers greatest challenge is let go with style and grace. There is that let go theme again!
As we come full circle in life, remember to step fiercely into the next circle. The next adventure, the next challenge, the next dose of pure joy and connection that must be experienced as humans. If you feel you've lost connections, why not join me in making this your focus for 2024?
Connect with me, jump into my life, make yourself known, reach out, ask me questions, share a beverage, give me a hug (former non hugger here... so this is big).
I simply love this glorious exploration of life!
Much love to you and happy New Year!
Suzie xx
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